what to do ?

For the past 6 months, i've been preparing for the LSATs. I mean it was 6months but the actual amount of time i spent preparing was more like 3months of other people's time. I took a vacation to take the test and i had to cancel it because of the fact that i knew my score was going to be low. Actually there would be a lot of people who would be satisfied with the score that i would have gotten (pretty sure in the low 160) but a score not up to par with what i wanted. The biggest problem i had with the test was not being able to read the questions fast enough, especially the reading section. I was never a fast reader but i was never this slow either. I can only complain about being away from the US for too long but that's just an excuse. I mean its only a test but still matters to me a lot since i am going to be jobless for a while after i am out of the army at the end of this year.

It's a scary thought for me. It's a depressing thought thinking about all the other people out there in this world building up careers, while i feel like i am just wasting my time. Actually, i know that i am not wasting my time but still.. it's just not the same. I guess there is just simply two options for me for right now.. take another shot at the lsats or review the things i learned in business school and try to get a good job(hopefully in banking)

Actually.. i think i complain too much about my military service. But i can say for sure that i am glad that i went to the army because the people that i met and the valuable experiences that i gained. I know it's not the most career-assuring move. but it's pretty fun.

I hope everyone in the States are doing fine~~

MADNESS

I can feel the madness all the way from KOREA!!!

GO HEEL!!!

We got the size, depth, speed, the coach... WE WILL WIN IT!

March

About to go on a 40km march. That converts to about 25miles with a full set of packs.

Wish me luck.

hello 2007

I don't know.. it's 2 in the morning and i just decided to stop by a PC bang and write what has been going through my  mind lately.

I guess i just realized that i am no longer young anymore. I'm turning 24, pretty much jobless for another year or so and it is scaring me a little. The thought of wasting two years of my life was something that i was never comfortable with. Nonetheless, for some reason i am truly starting to get bitter about it. You get pulled out from nowhere for two years and work your butt off for two years and what? Nothing. Zilch. The only thing you have done is to spend two years of your youth on an organization that never really is trying to support you. Even the goddarn president tells you that soldiers are rotting in the army these days. Thanks Prez Noh!

I am not saying that i would have lived up to much even if i were to get a job right after college. But i do know that i would have been much more useful. People don't change on their own, but your environment definitely changes you. And these days i am thinking that maybe i have changed for the worse. My values have been compromised and it just kills me inside. I know for sure that it killed the little writing skills that i had. The life inside the military have drived all vivacity out of my life. I can sense that my drive my will are fading away and i am doing my all to fight through it but it's rough. A general sense of lonliness is around me. Maybe because i realized that i am no longer young, maybe because my vacation is about to end, maybe because of the uncertain future, who knows?

I don't know, i just wanted to write about what's going through my mind. It might have sounded a little gloomy but i may be exaggerating a little. I know i am going to be fine, but it still makes me wonder the what ifs.

Happy New Year everyone.

almost one year

Almost one year

One more year to go. I think i can do it. I think~~